It was the last time I felt like this, I felt
nothing at all. & I was fifteen when you
got sick, I still remember the phone call.
When they said there’s something inside of
You, so they tried radiation & chemicals
too & now you’re standing on the last
line, & so am I, I’ve got you. & you’ve
got me too, hold on, I’ve got you.
You said there’s broken links in your
brain, & I said “It’s ok, mine’s exactly
the same.” There’s still some things I don’t
understand, like the casual blindness toward
the cruelty of man. & a cop shot the
wrong guy again & they tore down a
childhood home again. Nobody seemed
to blink an eye when they wanted you to
pay to see the sky. I’m running out
of time, & you’re still running for your life.
There are days I wish you could forget when the
Broken glass cut open my arm & my
chest, & you just held me down as the
needle went in & out. & mum was
retracing her steps, when the doctor
asked her for a cigarette, a two year
old child in a hospital bed. I will never
run with glass again. Just like you said
“don’t be an idiot.”
& I know that when you go, part of me
will go with you to the infinite unknown. &
will stand at the edge of the divide, & I
will hold your hand & together we’ll dive.
& I will never meet a man that can make me
question like the way you can. A defender
of freedom, an advocate for truth. I’m
so proud that half of me grew from you.
All the broken parts too. I’ve got you.
I will always hear you when I
speak, I will always see your face in me.
We never found the subway
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This album is so painfully beautiful. Julien's voice is delicately strained and her words paint vignettes that range from delicate somber memories to muted pain. The guitar tones and thin texture of the layering leave this album feeling very intimate and raw. Among the best things I've heard this past year. Jake Gussman